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Jan. 27th, 2010 10:31 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
emothyI am possibly overdue a ramble, but whenever I get emotional and want to ball it all up and let it out I also want to keep my stupid shame and fears to myself. So I've been driving myself crazy right within my own mind a lot recently.
Life is going to be crazy this year, I am going to accept that. A lot of changes, new experiences. Hopefully all good ones, or at least mostly. I can't have everything good ;)
My sleeping habits are ridiculous. I have had pretty much every Monday and Friday this month booked off as holiday, I have every Monday in February and a couple of Fridays. So I have two days off, two days in, two days off, one day in. I am lucky if I fall asleep before 2am most nights. And I keep falling asleep on the sofa when I get home from work because I just can't get my timing straightened out.
I am teaching one girl at work how to do the assistant manager job (along with mum also teaching her because you know, I'm on holiday a lot at the moment), and teaching another girl how to do the card section. Teaching is only as enjoyable as the competance and attitude of the student, I find. So that's not a viable career ;)
I have done so much writing. A combination of watching the Prince of Tennis anime all the way through, right to the end of the Nationals for the first time ever, and having all this free time. I have been inspired to write anything and everything with those characters. It's like my One True Fandom. You know, since Lostprophets and I broke up.
I've already posted about 20K worth of writing since December - a proportion of it is private entries in my fic journal admittedly because it's part of a series but all at random along the timeline and of course you write the plot twists first so it would ruin the whole thing if it were seen ;)
Cyn asked me what else I had in the works, and I ended up word-counting it all the other day. I kept the list because I'm rather awed by it. Seriously:
alwaysagirl!Fuji = 7731
assassin!au = 1272
Fuji!sensei = 2086
Mei-chan fic = 1067
OT5!verse = 2377
OT6!verse = 3796
jail!fic Chapter 2 so far = 1986
jail!fic other snippets = 2988
Tezuka/Fuji continued from age-stamp meme = 1521
therapy!fic = 3609
28,433 WORDS NOT YET POSTED. (And yes I like exclamation marks. Everything is !!!)
That's more than double what I wrote last year overall. But I suppose I did watch a lot of new things last year - especially Korean dramas I think, so it was about getting my head around so many new characters and settings and situations. And JDramas especially only last a small amount of episodes compared to most TV I am used to. Perhaps it isn't enough background and build-up for me.
Tomorrow I am going to the bank to have a lovely chat with a financial advisor. Fun. But it needs to be done. I have money and it is doing nothing in useless places. I will change that.
Out of 13 books I got for Christmas, I have read 7. I have a couple more Vorkosigan books to read, a trilogy Natalie bought me, and The Curse of Chalion, because I could only get the first book in the series at the time. I certainly plan to buy more things to read when I get through these ;) January and February are always big book reading months for me because of how much holiday I always have left to use up. It's so quiet at work it's scary. We have the minimum of six staff a day (enough to cover the sheer size of the shop) and we're struggling for things to do.
There is no Criminal Minds tomorrow(/today) :( But I suppose if I had known there was one, when I had this stupid meeting at 10am which is when I'd usually be looking the video up online, I'd have been a lot more annoyed!
Life is going to be crazy this year, I am going to accept that. A lot of changes, new experiences. Hopefully all good ones, or at least mostly. I can't have everything good ;)
My sleeping habits are ridiculous. I have had pretty much every Monday and Friday this month booked off as holiday, I have every Monday in February and a couple of Fridays. So I have two days off, two days in, two days off, one day in. I am lucky if I fall asleep before 2am most nights. And I keep falling asleep on the sofa when I get home from work because I just can't get my timing straightened out.
I am teaching one girl at work how to do the assistant manager job (along with mum also teaching her because you know, I'm on holiday a lot at the moment), and teaching another girl how to do the card section. Teaching is only as enjoyable as the competance and attitude of the student, I find. So that's not a viable career ;)
I have done so much writing. A combination of watching the Prince of Tennis anime all the way through, right to the end of the Nationals for the first time ever, and having all this free time. I have been inspired to write anything and everything with those characters. It's like my One True Fandom. You know, since Lostprophets and I broke up.
I've already posted about 20K worth of writing since December - a proportion of it is private entries in my fic journal admittedly because it's part of a series but all at random along the timeline and of course you write the plot twists first so it would ruin the whole thing if it were seen ;)
Cyn asked me what else I had in the works, and I ended up word-counting it all the other day. I kept the list because I'm rather awed by it. Seriously:
alwaysagirl!Fuji = 7731
assassin!au = 1272
Fuji!sensei = 2086
Mei-chan fic = 1067
OT5!verse = 2377
OT6!verse = 3796
jail!fic Chapter 2 so far = 1986
jail!fic other snippets = 2988
Tezuka/Fuji continued from age-stamp meme = 1521
therapy!fic = 3609
28,433 WORDS NOT YET POSTED. (And yes I like exclamation marks. Everything is !!!)
That's more than double what I wrote last year overall. But I suppose I did watch a lot of new things last year - especially Korean dramas I think, so it was about getting my head around so many new characters and settings and situations. And JDramas especially only last a small amount of episodes compared to most TV I am used to. Perhaps it isn't enough background and build-up for me.
Tomorrow I am going to the bank to have a lovely chat with a financial advisor. Fun. But it needs to be done. I have money and it is doing nothing in useless places. I will change that.
Out of 13 books I got for Christmas, I have read 7. I have a couple more Vorkosigan books to read, a trilogy Natalie bought me, and The Curse of Chalion, because I could only get the first book in the series at the time. I certainly plan to buy more things to read when I get through these ;) January and February are always big book reading months for me because of how much holiday I always have left to use up. It's so quiet at work it's scary. We have the minimum of six staff a day (enough to cover the sheer size of the shop) and we're struggling for things to do.
There is no Criminal Minds tomorrow(/today) :( But I suppose if I had known there was one, when I had this stupid meeting at 10am which is when I'd usually be looking the video up online, I'd have been a lot more annoyed!
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Date: 2010-01-28 12:20 am (UTC)DDDD: Want.
And you should post your writing. |D
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Date: 2010-01-28 09:13 am (UTC)There are so many good stories, full of intrigue and life lessons without beating you over the head with morals. And weird cultures and great people. At least you'll have book-money again on payday, hopefully :*
lol, dude, I would post my writing, but nothing on that list is FINISHED. (And if I work on the first one and actually complete it, considering it's already over 7K it will be the longest one-shot I ever wrote!)