I wonder if having read these words will influence the words I choose now;

[emothy]

I'd just like to take a moment to gush a little about Stephen Fry. I love Stephen Fry. I knew a long time ago that I loved Stephen Fry, but reading his autobiography makes me want to squish him up and carry him around in my pocket love him. (Mostly so I can pluck him out now and then to cheer me up).

He has actually reminded me how wonderful it felt to be in love for the first time, no matter how awful the fall-out was, or the shittiness of unrequited love, whatever. Whatever the ending, the beginning, the sheer act of living and experiencing it... I suppose I can't say I regret that. Feeling on a high all the time, being completely aware of how obvious I was, how obsessed, head-over-heels and chastising myself every minute of every day for having to glance in his direction every few seconds, or check the classroom door to see if it was him walking in.

There are a few things in there that make me feel not so alone in the way my mind works, or perhaps the guilt I feel at having certain opinions or emotions.

And goddamned if I never would've guessed that MEN could sit and do something like imagine what lovely name that boy they'd just fallen for at first sight might have, the word that would match the beauty. Running through the alphabet, picking and choosing.

Can't say I've ever done it personally, but there are similar sorts of things I suppose I think of as being part of a woman's imagination? ;D Not in a way that demeans either gender.

I have fifty pages to go, and though I usually go to bed at eleven on a night before a working day, I think I'll be pressing on to finish this before I lay down tonight.

Comments

[chaos-harmony.livejournal.com]

I don't think I've ever read Stephen Fry before (quite liked him on Bones, though!), but you've piqued my interest. Which book of his is this, and what's it about?

[emothy]

It's called Moab is my Washpot, and it's an autobiography of his first years up to age twenty (I hope he does another of the next twenty or so years!). I'm definitely going to explore his fiction too.

Considering his very high-paced, information-packed way of speaking (which completely and utterly translates into his writing), it's terribly easy to follow - even when he goes off on a tangent for thirty pages before remembering what he was supposed to be talking about ;D

I love him on Bones, too!

[vacivity.livejournal.com]

I love the feeling of falling in love; those first three months are the best, for me. It's a rush, an amazing one. Thinking about it makes me miss it, actually.

(However, after those three months of being in love or even having a crush, I don't care much and it ends on a sour note. :x)

[emothy]

It's something I haven't felt for a long time! And nothing is quite like the first time. In fact, I find each time is a little different; probably because we all change as people moment to moment, and our idea or definition of love might alter a little at times.

(You are terrible XD)

[punk-in-chains.livejournal.com]

Yes to this whole post. :-D I haven't read his autobiography actually but I am now going to look for it!

As regards the men thing, I think all that sort of stuff you mentioned isn't actually common with men, but it obviously does exist, usually in the more effeminate ones...and I say effeminate in the sense that our society has decided that thoughtfulness is a feminine attribute, mostly because it tends to occur more in women than in men. Thoughtfulness in terms of other people, anyway. It's not that most men don't know what I'm thinking, it's that it doesn't occur to them to wonder about it, heh.

I do hope that paragraph made sense...there's lots of ambiguity in it but I imagine seeing our SHARED BRAINSPACES you will understand it.

I have a higher than average number of male friends who're on that thoughtful end of things, and they are the ones I can talk to because they understand when I waffle on about people, because they've done it themselves. Whereas the more obtuse ones just don't understand how I could know that so-and-so might feel regret, and why that matters. For them, you have to spell it out. Almost all of the problems between men and women stem from the fact that men are essentially simple creatures when it comes to emotions, and they like it that way. Women don't understand that, and constantly get frustrated when the man doesn't do what they would do, which is ridiculous. And is also why I have far more male friends than female. They make sense. :-) /mass stereotyping

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