original characters suck

It's awful making a decision for something and then not remembering why you did it. I ALWAYS do that when I write and it affects the outcome, because I lose track of why I'm doing it. That's one of the many things that sent me into a bleak mood last night.

Rereading it this morning, I still like this character, though she isn't what I thought she'd be at the beginning. Nothing ever is though ;) I just need to work out the motivation for it all.

I suppose a bad case of embarrassment, resentment and an attempt to control her own life and keep it simpler at a point in life where for most it seems completely out of control. I'll have to write something out to explain it to myself.

MORE WORK :P