plan ahead or you end up writing crap like this

I ate like one square of Yorkie and now I feel ill. Chocolate is the devil.

I'm watching Empire Records coz I noticed it was on Sky Movies and I've never seen it. It's really interesting, I wish I could work at a job with people who I could be myself with, and fuck around and get hyper and have fun and dance around. I want life to be fun, I do.

And I like how the manager sort of runs around after everyone like a parent or a teacher or something, dragged into all their shit. I don't ever see anything like that.


And I recognised that chick from The Craft right away. I like her more in this than that. I think much of it has a lot to do with the no hair thing. Bald chicks are pretty hot.

I've considered shaving my head a lot. But I don't think I'm the kind of person who could get away with it, so I'll never do it probably. But it would be cool.

I just wanted to update so yeah here's some random pointlessness! Lorena I'm glad we've been having long talks recently, coz before I was all paranoid coz you had to leave so soon after I said hi that you didn't want to talk to me coz I'm well, paranoid. You're still the best stalker ever ;)

I have work tomorrow, all day. I wish I could be around more to see if other people would be around more. And not worry about whether to talk to someone, who else is online they might want to talk to instead, what we're going to talk about and whether I'm going to get bored of it. I just want to be social, but I want to keep myself from getting emotionally involved in friendships. I can't do that so I take risks.

I can't work out what's paying off and what isn't right now. I'm so confused about everything. Today mum questioned whether I should be working where she is, whether I need to be out there on my own more. Like we even see each other much at work. At work I can get along with my mum, it's a different world to home. I like that.

I didn't even think about that til now. Great now I'm gonna depress myself. The only thing my dad said to me today was "hi gothic."

I told him he didn't even know what that meant, but he assures me he does. Uhuh.


I'll just go write now or something.