what an amazing time

Sometimes I wonder if I'm not missing out by being born a girl. But there's not much I can do about that.

Or just being someone else, anyone else. Everyone else. I want to understand thoughts that aren't mine, and thought processes and logic and rationalism, morals, ethics, all other people's thoughts and feelings and everything. I want to think and feel and understand it all. I want to get inside people's heads. When are they going to invent something to make that possible? Thought they really shouldn't, should they.


Does anyone ever look back on events and think they overreacted too much at the time? Feel guilty and regret what a fuss they made? I do a lot, but I can't imagine not making a fuss, not letting certain things realisations and situations, get to me. I'm stucked!

And off to bed :-*

whoa this got loooong

( could be interpreted as self-pitying rambling. i think most know what to expect from me by now when i say that. dive in at your own risk; if you start to feel queasy get OFF the ride )