creativity; a tiny ramble on

[emothy]

Something I don't understand - why is it that my perception of drawing and writing are so different, in regards to my own skill level among everyone else's? I'm not the best writer out there, and yet I still continue to write. I'm not the best artist out there, and so I gave up drawing regularly years ago. It's actually an incredibly soothing thing to do. I just sat for half an hour and sketched and I feel massively calmed in a way nothing like writing does for me. Writing brings accomplishment. This sketch is rough and barley an outline, and I'm not dedicated enough to work on it - mostly because it won't come out to anywhere near my own satisfaction - and yet I can just put it away and be happy that I did it because I just feel happier in general now.

I suppose what I'm trying to point out to myself is that they are two outlets for different things, and I'm having different responses to them and getting different things out of them, and that's why one is a hobby long buried, and the other is a constant push? I just don't get why. Why these two things, and why it is the way it is.