
Went out to lunch with my family, just like last week but with my Grandad instead of Gavin & Gary and Gavin's fiancee Nicola. Then after that Carrie came round and we went for a long walk along the beach, almost up to Jaywick, which is like an hour's walk. I pushed poor Carrie and her asthma almost to the limit I think. Or you know she's just whiny, which is true. She whined about the heat, then later on about the cold, the sand, everything! She got pins and needles in her foot so I gave her a "foot massage" which was surreal but funny. Hey later on I got a back massage in return!
So we were out between about 3.30pm and 7.30pm at the beach, and when we got back my parents were there. Carrie ended up sucked into watching the football (BLAH) and I made us my lovely famous chicken wraps (which were really, really nice apparently, yay) and then after I'd decided she'd been watching the footy WITH MY DAD for too long, I pouted and sulked and came upstairs and she followed and gave me allllllll the attention for the rest of the night, til her mum called at half eleven asking where she was!
I didn't know til tonight how nice it feels just to be touched on your face. I still can't get over the fact that she's happy just to sit and silence like that, and then tell me she likes touching me. There's never been an awkward silence, always just content. And jeeze, she likes football so she has my dad's approval! WEIRD.
Oh and then when she was going to go the chain on her bike fucked up and came off so she had to mess about putting that back on, I gave her a cloth to wipe her hands off with and when she gave it back to me she snuck in a peck on the lips. Which I haven't let her do if you've been following everything else we get up to. I said we have some currently undefined relationship between "friends" and "friends with benefits". So if anyone knows what that would be called you let me know! ;)
It's just when I'm not freaking out all "where is this going what are we doing", I am happy the way things are. I quite like this whole being touched and held stuff without the commitment, or anything like that. Just you know, being touchy-feely friends. I'm quite content with that. My mum always says I laugh a lot but I don't really smile all that often, but recently I think I've had quite a few moments of smiling on the inside.
Oh and Carrie reckons Brenda (assistant manager) and Jan (one of the manageresses) at work have figured otu there's SOMETHING going on with us. Louise said something really nasty about Carrie yesterday and I mentioned in passing to Carrie she'd said something and I didn't like it (yes I'm a shit stirrer but hello special circumstances here! Special person) and Carrie wanted to know what, and was getting annoyed because this isn't the first time it's happened, and I was telling her to just chill out and I'd tell her later and stuff, and everyone thought WE were arguing! But then Carrie ran into Jan after and Jan was all "oh I know you and Emma weren't arguing, you guys are fine". She said it very knowingly apparently ;)
I'm babbling, hi :) It's better than me sitting playing around with Carrie's cap that she left here and said I could just give her back on Wednesday isn't it though? Which I am not doing, because I'm babbling!
But I'll go get a drink and go read now so yeah, hi ;)