make a deal with god and let him swap our places

[mood | thoughtful]

[music | Within Temptation - Stand My Ground ]



I tried to go to bed at like 9pm and sleep off my jealousy issues but considering I only got up at 12.30pm today and did nothing much except have a bath and read in bed and poke around online I wasn't exactly tired enough for that to work.

I'll get to replying to posts and comments later, because I meant to but I don't feel like it at the moment.

Been watching Eskobar and Within Temptation videos the past couple of days, videos are grate. And I had some weird dream with this guy who had a disease or mutation or something and the authorities were after him and I was trying to help him escape. And I swear I was a smoker in the dream because some time this afternoon I suddenly realised it was so VIVID in the dream I'd convinced myself I'd actually had a real cigarette. And I've never even tried one in my life, probably only ever touched one about five times in my life.

Speaking of, yesterday was like National No Smoking Day. Shame I didn't know that yesterday huh, so I could hassle everyone who smokes ;)

Cathryn called me a little while ago. Apparently Joel thinks Ian... *cough* Dashing or something. STOP TAINTING IAN OMG. Unless it's in the good way ;) Which it never is unless it's Lee doing the tainting. I have an idea for some Ian/Lee fic, let's see if I can write that. And try and work on that polyamory one too.

Sigh, there are just some jokes and ways of acting and teasing that I'll only ever have with Cathryn. Weird to think that.

Oh, and I've lived in this house ten years come April, and yet since I've quit work and been home all the time I've walked into a door practically every other DAY. You'd think I'd know my way around by now, huh? And where the doors are so as NOT to walk into them...