oh great thanks for the imitation I hate you

Okay maybe I will get a job again. Maybe I'll work all the time and save up lots of money. Maybe I'll move out into some pokey flat, and it won't even matter what size it is, or if I have a phoneline, because I'll always be at work. Anything to get out of here, and just be ALONE. Jesus.

I should be watching the rest of Girl, Interrupted, but noooooooooo. There I was in my old room with it on TV and watching, and mum comes along and says I'm dusturbing my parents. I'm not allowed to laugh out loud past 8pm, because my parents would be in bed and trying to sleep when there's NOTHING TO GET UP FOR ANYWAY. She tells me to go downstairs, so I do, only to find she's down there making herself a snack anyway. So food woke her up, not me. And she adjusts the volume to what she wants and then eats a packet of crisps so I can't even hear it at all. And then my dad comes down and decides to half sit on me and steal my cover and talk so I can't hear yet again, and block my view so I can't see either. So now I'm here and not fucking getting to watch the end!

Why do they have to act like such CHILDREN?! Why did I have to be brought up by these people? Racist, homophobic, narrow-minded... Everything has to be done the way society thinks is right. Majority rules all.

Yes I'm overreacting. I haven't had PMS all week to prepare for fucking BLEEDING so here it is now, LOUD AND PROUD.

I'M A KID STILL I'M ALLOWED TO SULK IF I WANT TO!

...And cry for no good reason. I don't even have a fucking blanket on my bed to sleep now because it's downstairs. I guess I just won't go to sleep. That'll piss my parents off. Apparently when you have no job and no real life you still can't sleep whenever you want because NORMAL PEOPLE SLEEP AT SET TIMES, NOT WHENEVER THEY FEEL LIKE.

I just wanted to be left alone. That's all I want.


And they can't fucking take it out on me because the bastards who were "going tobuy our house" [YEAH RIGHT] fucked us about for four months and PRETENDED THE LINE WAS BAD when the solicitor phoned them today, their last chance! WHY IS EVERYONE JUST A BIG CHILD?!

I'm just gonna have to breathe and think of the Winona/Angelina that SO should've happened. And the removing of Jared's beard coz ew. Yeah, being shallow is the best kind of life. Simple, happy. Right?

I think my fucking period pains are coming back. JOY!

headdesk

Wow, the titles of some of the stuff on slashypunkboys...

People have no imagination or sense, do they.

P.s - I HAVE A COLD WOE.

the old old old OLD winamp was better! I was used to that!

I have a weird playlist :/

I mean, I know how everyone's unique, and I hate labels because no-one listens to just "one type" of music. But my playlist... It just looks reeeeeal weird.

nobody is on msnnnnnnnnnnnnn coz it suuucccckkkks

Okay I was stupid enough to want to compile a whole fic list of mine in the first place, especially after I started it once before and lost it, so had to do it all over again.

But now I'm trying to split it into pairings and fandoms and just... GOD. *kills self* Awfulawfulawfulbadbadbad. Some of them you have to read to see what the pairing is, and I can't bring myself to read it! I mean the reeeeally old crap. Urgh eyesporkout.

It's just not fun, it's icky hard work :/ Maybe I'll start with the newer fic I don't hate so much!

Sigh. My dad wants us to go back down to the animal rescue place tomorrow to see if the cattery is open, because they were having an inspection today. I think it'll be weird getting a kitten [or two :P] without mum personally, since it's a family thing, but she's going back to work because we actually still have a mortgage to pay now *stabs stupid people who didn't buy the house after all*

We'll have seven cats if we get two. SEVEN. We're practically our OWN rescue centre! But yeah, if we even get one tomorrow I might pic spam all my lovely cats ;) I already kno what I want to call a kitten if we get one [we're getting a girl hopefully] but mum and dad have to agree, le sigh.


P.s - Hearing this song for the first time, and it's quite pretty :D