holy crapping hell it's february already

I am not happy right now. Why? My back actually.

I stumbled out of bed because I couldn't sit up properly, every night I wake up at least twice with back aches and pains and can't get back to sleep straight away, and I don't know what's causing it or what I've done. I haven't DONE ANYTHING! I'm just sick of it, and feeling old or half-crippled. Though today is the worst. I think I went to bed at 3am, woke up at half five, woke up at seven, woke up and half nine, woke up at twelve. I didn't bother getting out of bed til half two. Yeah and the time is now? I just ache all over :(

I think I'll go soak in the bath and hope that relaxes whatever muscles are all tense and bothering me. I had a dream I was outside a gig yesterday, and getting lost on the underground. I think I spend too much time in London and waiting for gigs.

I can't believe a month of this year is over already, either. Every year gets faster. So what's like when you're retired, do you sit down one day and find a week had passed you by? Do you take down the Christmas tree only to put it back up again? I haven't accomplished anything. I don't know what I'm suppsoed to have accomplished, but jeeze it'd be nice to have done something! Oh, I suppose I wrote a few things actually. Hmmm, my life. Writing.

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