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emothydidn't sleep well again last night; didn't keep waking up this time, but I just feel like I've been dozing the whole time instead of really sleeping, so I'm still knackered. I'm starting to think life doesn't want me to sleep. Just wants me zombiefied as much as posible so I can go to work and behave like a robot. I wish I could!
God I hate my job so much though. No-one cares there. I don't even care enough to go into it. But there's nothing else I want to do. I'm a lost cause. I just want to sleep forever right now.
I'm freezing cold this morning too. I slept with a fleece on and zipped up, an an extra blanket wrapped around me. Usually when I do that in the middle of the night I get too hot and throw off the blanket and the fleece, but this morning I was still fine. I'm sitting here still with the fleece and blanket round me and I really don't want to get dressed because it involves being near cold air.
I just want to go to sleep and not have to deal with any of this shit. I bet I break down and cry today, I can just feel it. Stupid fucking lack of sleep making me feel really vulnerable.
I am so going to fail at life. I hate people, I'm not interested in love, and I'm useless at most jobs. I FAIL AT LIFE PEOPLE.
God I hate my job so much though. No-one cares there. I don't even care enough to go into it. But there's nothing else I want to do. I'm a lost cause. I just want to sleep forever right now.
I'm freezing cold this morning too. I slept with a fleece on and zipped up, an an extra blanket wrapped around me. Usually when I do that in the middle of the night I get too hot and throw off the blanket and the fleece, but this morning I was still fine. I'm sitting here still with the fleece and blanket round me and I really don't want to get dressed because it involves being near cold air.
I just want to go to sleep and not have to deal with any of this shit. I bet I break down and cry today, I can just feel it. Stupid fucking lack of sleep making me feel really vulnerable.
I am so going to fail at life. I hate people, I'm not interested in love, and I'm useless at most jobs. I FAIL AT LIFE PEOPLE.
