em (hugs) i hope you're feeling better by the time you read this. rest up, okay?
when i find someone intimidating but nice, my first impulse is to include this person in my deepest-level journal filters. sometimes i manage to fight off this impulse, because it is a stupid impulse XD; but i suppose i can rationalize it by saying i would prefer that this awesome person get to know the darker sides of me, and then decide if s/he still wants to be associated with me, or break off all ties, right off the bat.
and if this person should decide to let ~feelings~ loose, unmasking him/herself as a real person and not the second coming in the process, i always consider it an honor... and a learning experience. ~feelings~ are scary, but if we stick to the un-scary and safe, we don't learn new things.
so far i've found that very little turns me off about people i already admired to begin with, even after getting to know them better.
ahaha i ramble XD; sorry about that. in short, i prefer disillusionment to come early. saves time and effort and dramu.
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when i find someone intimidating but nice, my first impulse is to include this person in my deepest-level journal filters. sometimes i manage to fight off this impulse, because it is a stupid impulse XD; but i suppose i can rationalize it by saying i would prefer that this awesome person get to know the darker sides of me, and then decide if s/he still wants to be associated with me, or break off all ties, right off the bat.
and if this person should decide to let ~feelings~ loose, unmasking him/herself as a real person and not the second coming in the process, i always consider it an honor... and a learning experience. ~feelings~ are scary, but if we stick to the un-scary and safe, we don't learn new things.
so far i've found that very little turns me off about people i already admired to begin with, even after getting to know them better.
ahaha i ramble XD; sorry about that. in short, i prefer disillusionment to come early. saves time and effort and dramu.